I believe that I have hit the fork in the road. You know the one where you say "um is this really what I want to do?" Well! I really didn't have to think about it long because I really do want to code. I know it will be a long and narrow road, probably bumpy too. So for now I have tied my knot and I am holding on. Thanks to my (church of Christ) sisters & brothers, also to this forum to be able to share my pains with my cyber coding family.
Still on my journey, still looking for work.
Enjoy your evening.